Austin James Levi

was born at 11:49 am 5 yrs ago today.......My 3rd son....I knew he was a boy by all the problems he was giving me...To describe Austin in a nutshell would be his Granny's words "I can see the devil dancing in his eyes" this is the boy who makes plans, who takes off without talking to mom first...This it the boy who acts like a girl when it comes to spider and snakes.....The kind hearted boy who asked to buy a rose for his foster grandmother (she is in his classroom as a volunteer) and then had to include his teacher and his assistant teacher to as he didn't want them to feel left out....This is the boy who asked for one thing this year and that was to talk to his Great Granny who isn't doing very well healthwise......He said "I want to tell I miss her, I love her" and that was arranged by his daddy....He is so kind hearted.....That tonight it broke his heart when Joshua told him that he broke his heart that he wouldn't let Joshua have his brand new hotwheels in the bathtub......But I am proud that my son also stood his ground and didn't allow his big brother to convince him to give them up.......This is the compasionite boy who kept asking my bff if she was ok as they were walking in walmart......This is the little boy that she picked up and put on her shoulders so I could eat at a resturant and he played in her hair...Quite funny if I do say so myselft, LOL.......I hope the rest of his life is as fun filled as his first 5 yrs have been....Happy Birthday Austin......I love you!!!  (PICS are not going to be coming for awhile, can't upload any new ones)

I am a large family mom

And darn proud of it...I'm sorry if the size of my family offends you or if it seems that I always have drama in my life....Well when you are a mom of 6 kids, married to a disabled military vet......there will always be drama.....Yes I only have 5 kids at home, hopefully soon that will change as he turns 18 in a matter of weeks....No my dh does not work, he would love to work but the drs have said NO way Jose so they put him on a military pension............Yes there are days we struggle to make ends meat but ya know thanks to my momma I do know how to make a dollar stretch and get what my kids need....And sometimes what they want.....My kids have never ever gone with out anything that they have needed......Now I will admit that they have done without things they want because well you don't always get what you want in life.........I have seen where a family of four spends close to a $1000 a month on groceries and it pisses them off when for a family of 7, I spend $400, sometimes a little less........sometimes more.....they can't see how I do it.......Its called planning and shopping sales......I'm sorry if our measly little pension isn't enough to satisfy you and your little clic......No we are not rich but we do own our own home, drive a 10 yr old suv (yes it is damaged thanks to dh's wreck) but does that change who I am....No it does not........And who are you to judge who I am, what I am......it is not your place, it is God's place.....I don't need your drama filled craptastic followers........Grow some cahonas and have the balls to tell a person that they have offended you in some way and move on about it.........Like the title to this post!!!!  I am a large family mom and dam proud of it........

Excuse this house

Some houses try to hide the fact

That children shelter there,

Ours boasts it quite openly,
...
The signs are everywhere.

For smears are on the windows,

Little smudges are on the doors

I should apologize, I guess

For toys strewn on the floor.

But I sat down with my child

And we played and laughed and read

And if the doorbell doesn’t shine,

His eyes will shine instead.

For when at times I’m forced to choose

The one job or the other,

I’d like to cook and clean and scrub,

But first I’ll be a mother.

~ Author Unknown

Please consider doing this class

http://www.redcross.org/savealife

Last friday, I almost lost my 22 mth old son due to him choking on some food.  He went limp and actually passed out........but thankfully due to my training that the NICU that that same son was in we were required to take a CPR class......Before that it had been almost 9 yrs since I had updated my cpr training.......As a mother that is not a face I want to see on my precious child's face again......Please take the time to take the class....You never know whose life you might need to help save!!

ChiAnne Renee Rose

My 2nd daughter was born 1 yr ago this evening.  I can not believe that one year has passed.  How is that possible.  She is one of the most quiet, patient children that I have ever met.  She is so laid back and calm.  She has finally discovered that she has a voice, she has to state her demands and boy can she.  She is cutting molars so she is not a happy camper, not only that she is sick again. 

This is Daddy holding his baby girl for the first time, she was about 12 hrs old

And this is my baby girl just a few days ago..........I love this pic, it shows her ornery side........Yes she is very very ornery......I promise I will get some updated pics soon of her and all the kids...

Jace Andrew Lane

 This is Jace today 2-8-11

This is Jace 2-7-11
My 5th born, my 4th son.......The child that God gave to test my patience and learn to listen to him.  All in God's timing.  God's way of saying wake up, I've giving you a special child and you will take care of him and teach him as he will teach you and that he has......My little boy is now fighting a deadly infection in his blood stream.....We have been fighting the flu......High fever, chills, coughing, body aches you name it Jace, ChiAnne and I had it.....We were miserable.........It started at the height of the blizzard (of which I will post pics later) and our drs were snowed in and couldn't get out.....Well ChiAnne had hers the week before so she was seen and of course the antibotics flowed.......along with steroids and cough meds again...well fast forward to saturday.....Jace is finally feeling somewhat better and goes to play with Joshua and Austin.....After about 20 mins he comes out of the hallway crying.....I pick him up, dry his tears, notice the skin around his eye is red (going up towards the nose) I made sure there was no opening, scratch......Ya know he is my allergy kid, the kid with a comprimised immune system..I so enjoy his cuddles as they are few and far between as he is a daddy's boy for the most part.....so he fell asleep and I had Daddy move him to his bed......He woke up a couple hours later and his eye was swollen half shut....We had Dee come over and babysit the other kids so we could take him to the ER......The ER is the Er....I would have much rather gone to the Urgent care but yeah they are not open 24/7 unfortnatly......The dr that we seen, I have never seen before is an egotistic arrogant, pompus man...Refused to listen to me when I told him he didn't need held down to look at his ears.....He wanted a strep test.....Um excuse me, he doesn't have strep......He has the flu, he is sick and now his eye is swollen shut.....GGGGGGGRRRRRRRR well the one thing that he did do right was tell us to follow up monday with our pcp or come back to the ER if he couldn't get us in........So monday morning Kent called and get him in to see Dr. Collier......Dr. Collier wasn't impressed with the ER's report and did blood work...It was then that my world was rocked to its core.....He has a bacterial infection and whats worse is it has spread to his blood stream.......It means hospitalization and it also means we have to go to Tulsa as our small town hospital is not equiped to handle Jace's infection...Whats worse is we have to be admitted threw the ER.....It takes over 4 hrs to get a room and repeating of all tests.....And fighting with them to get him something for the pain......Saturday they told us to chase his motrin.....basically he was getting a dose of motrin every 4 hrs and then a dose of tylenol every 4 hrs......but not togather and it figured out that he was getting a dose every 2 hrs......well the ER wouldn't do that.....He screamed in pain for almost 3 hrs straight........They finally gave him tylenol after letting him suffer like that about 5 mins before transport shows up to take him to his room......Oh geez finally!!!!  We get upstairs and I'm impressed, there is a dr, a Cna, and a Nurse all waiting on him.....He should be admitted to the PICU but the PICU is full so he is on the floor in isolation but has all the PICU specialities...Which is great....Daddy is staying up there with him as I can not as I have the same eye infection he does as well as the flu......I'm getting over the flu but I still have that yucky cough.....the eye is finally clearing up and we are now getting pounded with another snow storm........Our 3rd in a week.......Seriously.......In the last week we are actually looking at breaking a snowfall record for the year......Being the snowiest on record.......A record that I could have easily let stand for all time to come......I will post about the 20 inches of snow that is still on the ground from last week or the 4.5 inches of snow that has snowed since then that did somewhat melt....or how about the 8+ inches that we might or might not get today.........Nope nope nope......My posts are focusing on my one and only Jace Andrew Lane.....The little man with the doe brown eyes who stole my heart......and who right now, his hug and kiss is the only thing that I can think of that will heal his momma's broken and turmoiled heart.......

Tandem by Tracey Bateman

I received this book to write a review

The first couple of chapters are confusing.  It changes from one person's point of view to another and then again to yet another.  But as I persevered and kept reading I realized that the 3 story lines were linked togather. The small town in the ozarks is rocked by murders and animal killings.  Its crime, passion, Daddy's little girls, and vampires all in one.  It is billed as a christian book however God is not the forefront of this book. I did like this book and will be trying to find the first book in this series "Thirsty".


 "I received this book for free from WaterBrook Multnomah Publishing Group for this review"